Time has passed slowly these last few days. Be it from the medication, sadness or otherwise I'm not too sure. I suppose it doesn't really matter too much. Perhaps it is merely a recapturing of the essence and importance of time in my life. Time had little meaning to me before; the future was an abyss of both uncertainty and foregone conclusions. The present was merely a high-speed train careening towards more disappointments. Thinking about the future was something that caused me a lot of stress. In fact, I tried my best not to think about it. Each day was just the same as the last. No hope for the future and no gratification from the past. Now it seems that moment is here when I can truly understand the meaning of time. You can't just look constantly in the future for you must live in the present first to be truly happy. "Be here now," a wise man once told me. For if you are not here now how can you possibly be here later? If you find happiness in the present then that happiness will become your future. Sounds simple enough. I'm not sure what sparked this change. I'm not entirely sure that I have changed. I do know though that I want to be here now, which has to be better than where I was.
So there you go, I started out just writing some random fictional melodrama I thought could be interesting just to see where it went and it sort of morphed into a life lesson/biography of some of the feelings I've had recently. Dig it. More posts to come soon.
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